Fear!

Fear!

A long break from hectic working schedule

Is typically a blissful one

But how long can one break from the norms

Norms of regular human life cycle?

When the break is longer than one tolerate

Something creeps into our empty soul

I call it the FEAR!

Once who never feared anything,

No darkness ever scary enough,

No shadows that haunted my soul

No wealthy shook my rooted feat off my ground,

No one ever could shatter my confidence

Because, when one has nothing worry about,

How could anyone install fear?

Until one day, it dawned onto me 

That, I have everything but nothing seems nice,

I have friends but I cant call, for its been so long

I have people around but they dont seem to approach

I have money but not strong enough to go shopping

And so on and so forth, then why do I feel so poor?

Weak and shaky, happier surroundings but sadder me?

This feeling was SCARY!

Do I have a hobby? Yes,

Do I have a book? Yes,

Do I have a place for peace? Yes

Do I have sun and moon around ? Yes

Do I have a companion? Yes

Then I realised- These are my armours

And now I dont fear! 

Finding oneself becomes difficult at some point,

That empty space is the devils garage,

Devil is always there but comes out only at dark,

Always brighten yourself with things that make you smile,

Keep that sheen glowing inside.

Feeling of fear before it could even come to you,

Is the darkness that screaming at you for giving room,

Your body, your heart, your soul = Your responsibility

Your family, your peace, your space= Co-responsiblity

Keep everything close that belongs to you,

So you remain unscathed by fear! 

My Team Mate

 With you, I was a team

with you I planted a dream

with you I planned the trip

without you my life has no grip!

Those bricks we stacked up

we built this castle with so much joy

with you around it was flawless

but for the creavasse we forgot to fill

one by one the bricks fall apart

by a small weaklinks here and there

its disheartening and wounds my heart

its not sweat and blood but dreams thats hurt!

was it my fault or was it yours,

its not on one but fault of us,

but we are a team, we know it

if you are there, lets rebuild

With you, I am still a team

with you I shall plant a dream

with you I will plan the trip

without you my life is nil!

A Lesson!

 It was once a dream to live

a life alone and enjoy it

all by myself, all to myself

until I heard how dreadful it was

to be leaving alone from here!

He was a friend, a dear one

Not dear to have spoken to everyday

Not dear to be clinging on to at all times

Not the kind that I miss day in and out

But, yes the one I spent quality time!

We shared some similar feelings to,

Our homes, families, our thought, our fears

we did fight and laugh at same things

at times, we also lost it at each other

Yet, we knew we could count on each other!

Little did I know this feeling was endless,

little did I know that we negated one day at a time,

little did I know life was running reverse,

A little early I would have built my home,

for a little togetherness and someone to shoulder on!

No, living alone is not any dream now,

it would be mere stupidity if I dont,

hug, kiss, cuddle to and hold on to one,

and keep close to my heart, and never hurt it

I want and will always want, to be with a soul!

And when I am gone

I know when I am gone,
you shall come to me,
a little in your thoughts
but a lot for memories....

We lived, a little less together
But we lived more than expected
We have a bonding, unseen, unheard
that we have etched together....

We loved each others failures,
just as much we loved individual success,
we lived it all through the suns & moon
but in stars, We'll still be measured

I go and you shall come along one day,
Till then, I know you can embrace our moments
Given another moon, that you wish for too
I shall try to show heavens, on terrace

That, every sun that shines and moon that glitters,
Will still remind you our moments,
For you have been the sunshine reflecting on me
I shall succumb to you thee...

With Love, I shall see you soon
In glory or disgrace you've been through,
I might not be the finest,
but, I shall wait till for you

until one day, you shall feel
like seeing me again,
Because, I know when I am gone,
you shall come to me,
a little in your thoughts
but a lot for memories....

Ek Waqt Aisa Bhi!

Badi kamzoor si pad gayi hoon,

YE- in ankhon me koi roshni kuin nahi hai?

koi aa raha hai, koi jaa raha hai,

apne aur paraaye me, koi farq kuin nahi hai?

umr yuin hi dal kaise gayi?

abhi bhi baagoan me kehlne ko

dil karta hai,

aaj kal bagh (garden) aur baagh (animal) me,

koi farq kuin nahi,

in kanon ko bhi koi awaaz

sunayi nahi deta.

Arre koi hai bhi?, ya main yuin hi,

fizool ki batein kar rahi hoon?

kuch goonjti huin, kuch machalti harkatein,

koi mere zamane ki batein kuin nahi karta?

Kya ye umr meri kabiliyat ka

ek tarazoo hai?

Ya mera tajuba mujhe taqlloof de raha hai,

ki mere hone aur na hone pe

kisi koi farq nahi padta?

Abhi bachpan ko jiya hi nahi

ki sab mere qabr ke intzaam me lage hai,

arre o'yaaron, koi chaar kandhe

ka bhi tayyari karlo,

hum aaj kal qabr taq bhi

akele jaa na paayenge

Pata nahi, koi sun raha hai bhi ki nahi? 

ek waqt aisa bhi beet raha hai. 

When it all ends!

When it all ends,
Life will be beautiful-
again, but when it all ends!

I will have another heart,
to sing the same love song,
in sync and in harmony
of my heartbeats-
But when it all ends!

I will hold another hand,
Swing and dance to the Jazz,
maybe marching towards a new Sun,
settling slowly to romantic moonlight-
But, when it all ends!

The harsh noise in our heads,
the false Love and contentment,
this fake Life and adjustments,
Complacency that is creepy,
When it all ends-
My world will be beautiful again! 

Lowly, lonely, leaning life

Lowly, lonely, leaning life,
less to live more to thrive
how much more worse can it get?
its, lowly, lonely, leaning life!

songs, snugs and smiles,
and the journey for miles,
world has loved it all,
and left me lonely appall!

stopped and signed in grief,
people did not believe.
They loved those smiles and giggles,
left me lonely to debrief.

I tried a lot and
my heart screamed for help,
perhaps! the dark sky,
with sinking heart these aches were left.

Is there a reason, why I need to?
when I needed I never had you.
should there ever be someone,
so snobbish and gruesome around?
lonely I came and lonely I am gone!

Lowly, lonely, leaning in pain,
sinking myself in my world again.
how much more worse can it get?
if lowly, lonely, life is all I gain!