My Team Mate

 With you, I was a team

with you I planted a dream

with you I planned the trip

without you my life has no grip!

Those bricks we stacked up

we built this castle with so much joy

with you around it was flawless

but for the creavasse we forgot to fill

one by one the bricks fall apart

by a small weaklinks here and there

its disheartening and wounds my heart

its not sweat and blood but dreams thats hurt!

was it my fault or was it yours,

its not on one but fault of us,

but we are a team, we know it

if you are there, lets rebuild

With you, I am still a team

with you I shall plant a dream

with you I will plan the trip

without you my life is nil!

A Lesson!

 It was once a dream to live

a life alone and enjoy it

all by myself, all to myself

until I heard how dreadful it was

to be leaving alone from here!

He was a friend, a dear one

Not dear to have spoken to everyday

Not dear to be clinging on to at all times

Not the kind that I miss day in and out

But, yes the one I spent quality time!

We shared some similar feelings to,

Our homes, families, our thought, our fears

we did fight and laugh at same things

at times, we also lost it at each other

Yet, we knew we could count on each other!

Little did I know this feeling was endless,

little did I know that we negated one day at a time,

little did I know life was running reverse,

A little early I would have built my home,

for a little togetherness and someone to shoulder on!

No, living alone is not any dream now,

it would be mere stupidity if I dont,

hug, kiss, cuddle to and hold on to one,

and keep close to my heart, and never hurt it

I want and will always want, to be with a soul!

And when I am gone

I know when I am gone,
you shall come to me,
a little in your thoughts
but a lot for memories....

We lived, a little less together
But we lived more than expected
We have a bonding, unseen, unheard
that we have etched together....

We loved each others failures,
just as much we loved individual success,
we lived it all through the suns & moon
but in stars, We'll still be measured

I go and you shall come along one day,
Till then, I know you can embrace our moments
Given another moon, that you wish for too
I shall try to show heavens, on terrace

That, every sun that shines and moon that glitters,
Will still remind you our moments,
For you have been the sunshine reflecting on me
I shall succumb to you thee...

With Love, I shall see you soon
In glory or disgrace you've been through,
I might not be the finest,
but, I shall wait till for you

until one day, you shall feel
like seeing me again,
Because, I know when I am gone,
you shall come to me,
a little in your thoughts
but a lot for memories....

Ek Waqt Aisa Bhi!

Badi kamzoor si pad gayi hoon,

YE- in ankhon me koi roshni kuin nahi hai?

koi aa raha hai, koi jaa raha hai,

apne aur paraaye me, koi farq kuin nahi hai?

umr yuin hi dal kaise gayi?

abhi bhi baagoan me kehlne ko

dil karta hai,

aaj kal bagh (garden) aur baagh (animal) me,

koi farq kuin nahi,

in kanon ko bhi koi awaaz

sunayi nahi deta.

Arre koi hai bhi?, ya main yuin hi,

fizool ki batein kar rahi hoon?

kuch goonjti huin, kuch machalti harkatein,

koi mere zamane ki batein kuin nahi karta?

Kya ye umr meri kabiliyat ka

ek tarazoo hai?

Ya mera tajuba mujhe taqlloof de raha hai,

ki mere hone aur na hone pe

kisi koi farq nahi padta?

Abhi bachpan ko jiya hi nahi

ki sab mere qabr ke intzaam me lage hai,

arre o'yaaron, koi chaar kandhe

ka bhi tayyari karlo,

hum aaj kal qabr taq bhi

akele jaa na paayenge

Pata nahi, koi sun raha hai bhi ki nahi? 

ek waqt aisa bhi beet raha hai. 

When it all ends!

When it all ends,
Life will be beautiful-
again, but when it all ends!

I will have another heart,
to sing the same love song,
in sync and in harmony
of my heartbeats-
But when it all ends!

I will hold another hand,
Swing and dance to the Jazz,
maybe marching towards a new Sun,
settling slowly to romantic moonlight-
But, when it all ends!

The harsh noise in our heads,
the false Love and contentment,
this fake Life and adjustments,
Complacency that is creepy,
When it all ends-
My world will be beautiful again! 

Lowly, lonely, leaning life

Lowly, lonely, leaning life,
less to live more to thrive
how much more worse can it get?
its, lowly, lonely, leaning life!

songs, snugs and smiles,
and the journey for miles,
world has loved it all,
and left me lonely appall!

stopped and signed in grief,
people did not believe.
They loved those smiles and giggles,
left me lonely to debrief.

I tried a lot and
my heart screamed for help,
perhaps! the dark sky,
with sinking heart these aches were left.

Is there a reason, why I need to?
when I needed I never had you.
should there ever be someone,
so snobbish and gruesome around?
lonely I came and lonely I am gone!

Lowly, lonely, leaning in pain,
sinking myself in my world again.
how much more worse can it get?
if lowly, lonely, life is all I gain!

Eternal Argument

There is one part of me,
always in argument
with the other part of me!

There is only one thing,
that is not defined
yet it is essential in life!

There is a constant demand
that becomes a craving
yet it is questioned!

Did it ever happen to you?
Where the mind is juggled!
Giving love V/S getting loved?
Loving the one not worth being beloved?
Is your heart too, so demanding
that it doesn't care the risk
yet be involved with someone?

Conflicts that has no resolution
situations that has no explanation
possessions that cant be justified
yet, heart demands for Love that is undefined!

Does it mean my heart is not mine?
Or does it mean, my mind doesn't care?
Is it just the mind and the heart?
Is my body just a thing that gets replaced?

There is this one part of me,
in perpetual argument
with that other part of me!

There is that only one thing,
which is not defined
yet it is the essential of life!

There is a constant demand
that becomes a craving for lifetime
yet it will be questioned,
again and again until you stop to whine!

Shooing those thoughts,
aren't as easy as I write.
Things will continue as it is,
a pause here and there wont mind!

I am giving it all up,
I am enduring the game,
Life as it has come,
will end with "love's"name!!